The Bloody Blade Goes All The Way In My Hand

I'm crying again... 

because of you...

My heart is bleeding again...

because you hurt me...

I've just sharpened the blade...

just for this night...

I'm getting wasted first...

so I feel numb...

but only at the outside...

never the inside...

until I'm dead...

Now I'm drunk enough...

The blade feels cold against my cheeks...

I cut to the other cheek and then to the other...

deep red blood runs out my face...

I'll cut again in the chest and neck...

I feel like choking on blood...

Deep red blood...

I hit the blade through my arm and twist it around...

I'm still crying...

but I have to do the one last move...

I turn the blade towards my heart...

It goes slowly inside me...

Finally I've stopped crying...

It doesn't hurt anymore...

Because now I can come to you...

And I'll never again be alone...

I close my eyes and lie on the floor...

With the bloody blade in my hand...

-Jonsku-